When the sense of “I” never came back

“There’s no sense of Vishrant here. The sense of ‘I’ has completely gone.”

Vishrant speaks plainly when he describes what happened twenty-six years ago, not as a mystical peak or a fleeting experience, but as something that did not reverse itself. He explains that what disappeared was not an idea or a belief, but the felt sense of being a separate someone inside the body, navigating life from a centre called “me.” What remained was not emptiness in the way people may fear it, but a constant sense of oneness that did not turn off, even while living an ordinary life in the world.

He is careful to distinguish this from what many people call an enlightening experience, moments of insight or expansion that arrive and then fade. Those experiences can be meaningful, he says, but they are not what he is pointing to. Enlightenment, as he describes it, is not an event that comes and goes, but a stable shift where awareness no longer returns to identifying as a personal self.

What makes his account unusual is not the language he uses, but the absence of drama in it. There is no claim of superiority, no sense of arrival, no story of having reached something others have not. Instead, there is a quiet insistence that what remains is simply what has always been here, once the sense of separation dissolves.

This distinction matters because it reframes enlightenment away from something achieved and toward something revealed. It is not that Vishrant became something new, but that something false stopped appearing as real.

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When the “I” completely disappeared

“Vishrant never came back.”

The shift itself did not happen in isolation or through effort. Vishrant recalls being in the presence of an enlightened teacher during a retreat where he noticed that the sense of “I” was absent while sitting with the teacher. At the time, he assumed this absence was due to the energy or presence of the teacher, something external that would pass once the retreat ended.

When the teacher left, however, the sense of personal identity did not return. The familiar reference point of being someone located behind the eyes, managing experience, never reappeared. Vishrant says this without mystery or exaggeration, noting almost casually that the “Vishrant I” has now been missing for twenty-six years.

What is striking here is not the claim itself, but the way it is framed. There is no effort to convince and no attempt to dramatize what this means. He simply states that ego-based reality and being-based reality cannot be compared because they operate from entirely different reference points.

From his perspective, the absence of the “I” is not a loss, but a relief. What replaced it was not confusion or dissociation, but profound contentment without a cause, a baseline sense of peace that does not depend on circumstances.

This is where many listeners expect a story of bliss or transcendence, yet what is offered instead is something far more grounded, a life lived without the tension of maintaining a self.

Profound contentment without a reason

“I’m profoundly content for no reason.”

When asked whether this contentment comes from recognizing himself as special or spiritually advanced, Vishrant responds immediately and unequivocally that it does not. He rejects the idea of being a special human being outright, explaining that he no longer experiences himself as a distinct individual at all.

Instead, he describes seeing himself as everything, the people, the walls, the roof, the sky, not metaphorically, but experientially. This is not an abstract belief about unity, but a lived absence of boundaries where awareness no longer locates itself inside a body looking out at a world.

He is careful to clarify that this does not make him different from anyone else. The only difference, as he sees it, is that awareness has recognized itself and remains aware of itself continuously. Nothing has been added. Nothing has been gained. Something simply stopped obscuring what was already present.

This reframing is subtle but essential. It removes enlightenment from the realm of spiritual achievement and places it squarely in the realm of perception. Awareness, once aware of itself, does not need to do anything to remain free. It simply no longer misidentifies. Profound contentment for no reason is a result of awareness becoming and staying aware of itself.

Awareness becoming aware of itself

“When it stays aware of itself, that’s enlightenment.”

Vishrant draws a clear distinction between a temporary glimpse and a permanent shift. A moment where awareness becomes aware of itself is often referred to as a satori, a glimpse that can be profound but temporary. Enlightenment, as he defines it, is when awareness remains aware of itself without reverting back to identification with the mind.

Importantly, he notes that this does not remove participation in the world. Awareness can be aware of itself and simultaneously engaged in conversation, relationship, and daily activity. Life continues, but it is no longer lived from a personal centre.

This is where many misunderstandings arise. People often imagine enlightenment as withdrawal, detachment, or disinterest in the world. Vishrant describes the opposite, full participation without ownership, engagement without identity.

From this perspective, the universe is not something one is part of. He corrects this language explicitly. To see oneself as a part of the universe still implies separation. His experience is that there is only the universe, appearing as everything, without reference points.

This is not philosophy. It is a report from lived perception, and it challenges many spiritual assumptions gently but firmly.

The end of separation

“I don’t consider myself a piece of the universe. I am the universe.”

This distinction marks a deep shift in how reality is experienced. Ego based perception relies on reference points, me and not me, inside and outside, subject and object. Vishrant says that for over two decades, he has found no reference points whatsoever.

What remains is described variously as vast emptiness, vast everythingness, or vast nothingness, not as poetic language, but as the only words available for something that cannot be located or defined. Crucially, he emphasizes that this is true for everyone, not just him. The difference is not a mind construct but experiential.

Awareness has locked onto itself, and in doing so, separation ends. The idea of God as something outside or above collapses, because unity is no longer conceptual. Religion, as he sees it, often reinforces separation by placing God elsewhere, rather than recognizing oneness as immediate and lived.

This is why his teaching does not aim to add beliefs but to remove what creates separation. The end of separation is not achieved by reaching something higher, but by seeing what is already here without the obstacles produced by the mind.

What happens when love comes first

“Whatever you put first, wins.”

From this way of being, Vishrant speaks about love not as an emotion, but as something real, always here and when the “I” takes a back seat and one is open, love is perceived. This is not moral instruction, but an observation of how life functions when separation is absent.

He points out that whatever we place first in our lives determines how we live, whether it is success, business, sport, or spirituality. When love is placed first, it wins, not occasionally, but every day, all day long.

This orientation removes hierarchy and worship entirely. Vishrant is clear that he does not accept flattery or criticism, because both rely on separation. Relationships, in this view, are horizontal rather than vertical, based on friendship rather than authority.

The implication is quietly radical. If people truly recognized their shared being, conflict would lose its foundation. Greed, hatred, and division depend on seeing oneself as separate and threatened. Love, in this context, is not sentimental, but structurally transformative.

A quiet invitation into what you already are

“We are one.”

The invitation offered here is not to follow, believe, or imitate. It is simply to notice where awareness is located, and whether it is aware of itself or lost in the mind’s reference points. This noticing becomes effortless with practice.

Vishrant does not suggest that the world can be saved by ideas or movements, but by individuals placing love first, again and again, in ordinary moments. Enlightenment, in this sense, is not an escape from humanity, but the end of what divides it.

Come to Satsang with Vishrant and allow this recognition to be supported within the buddha field, where awareness naturally stabilises in itself without strain or seeking. Here, nothing is added, nothing is demanded, and nothing needs to be achieved, because what you are has never been separate, only overlooked.